I am in the "in between" trailing fingers off my rock into the sea, it curls around my fingers, warm and fluid, the scent of the sea filling senses. The sunlight glinting off the wavelets as they bound towards the rock and back again. I lean forward and look into the blue-green depths at my toes twinkling in the embrace of the sea. I am annoyed as usual in a frustrated way. I glance up the cliff face, at the twirling seagulls riding wind currents. Annoyance flares again. I love this place, it echoes so much of my childhood, this place I built in my mind as a sanctuary to retreat to. Why am I so annoyed? Because I remember so much.
I remember what I was before I incarnated here, I remember all my lives, I remember birth and I remember death. I remember what it is like on the other side. I remember how to move out of my body and I remember how to build this place I can come to. I remember and it is annoying the heck out of me. Why? Because today I want everyone else to remember too.
I flick water off my fingers back at the sea and the droplets soar like dancers into the air until gracefully curving back down into the sea. I love water, I love it so much, it's why I put water, the sea into this place. I move off the rock and sink into the depths to sulk. The water fills my senses, you cannot drown in the "in between" how utter futile would that be to build a world where you can drown when you have no physical body as such. Just thinking that annoys me again and I dig my toes into the sea bed and hang in the fluidness of the water.
I don't tell people I do this much, when I do it at the swimming pool in the real world people think I am trying to drown myself and worry when I repeatedly surface to go to the bottom again and again. Air, a crucial ingredient of having a body.
Light flickers incandescently under the water as it seems a patch of water has an independent mind and is moving within the stillness of the water towards me. I watch "dun, dun, dun, dun," Jaws theme runs through on a thought stream through my mind. Laughter richly follows that thought and I try not to grump at Cornelius as he moves closer through the filtered light towards me. This fluid being is perfectly at home in the water, and I envy him completely for the weightlessness. "You have that too" he comments in my thoughts "it's your world". "Yes, here. But not when I get back to my body".
He catches my thoughts immediately and moves closer. "One day" he says, meaning I get to go home one day. I screw my nose up at him. "Want me to shed some light" he comments and the water moves around in a light squeeze. "Beach" I think and my toes curl into dry sand. I look out into the bay and at the rock submerged where I was. Again, annoyance flares, limitations of a limiting world, I think grumpily.
"Don't feel like that" Cornelius whispers beside me. Sunlight shimmers off him and he fluidly sinks to the sand. I flop somewhat ungraciously beside him. "Tell me THE POINT of forgetting again, because I'm having a, why the HELL won't you remember people, day!". I hear chiming laughter in my mind and mentally throw something at Jet, who is lurking beyond the current thought train, but still I am aware of his presence.
Cornelius shifts slightly and there is a distinct fluid movement of his silvery being. I cross my legs and wait impatiently for the answer, sifting sand through my fingers in annoyance.
"You do know the reasons" he gently reminds me. "Yes, Yes I DO!" I rejoin tartly "but humour me, because I am frustrated with people NOT remembering at this stage". "Not everyone forgets either" he reminds me and I squeeze my eyes shut tightly and smother anything at all in my mind that is rude.
"You chose to plan your life so intricately, with all options covered, with all choices complete. Each twist and turn accounted for, to your parents, your children, purpose, everything. Because you planned it and spent time on this planning, understand what would be the purpose of remembering if everything you planned turned out exactly the way you did plan it, because you did remember?" I process that for a moment, roll my eyes and go "yesssss and in terms that normal people can understand?"
"If you knew that you were having a holiday in Hawaii, at 10am you would go outside every day and sit on the beach, get a little sunburnt, drink a pina colada, go inside at mid day eat a sandwich, go back outside and sit in the sun. Over and over for the whole holiday without any change whatsoever, would that inspire you to have that holiday every day?" "Don't tempt me" I mutter. He laughs out loud and the rippling fluidness of his laughter ripples out over the waves of the bay.
"The reason you forget is the challenge of the experiences. The challenge of the learning. Think of it this way, the very first time you tried something new, did it enthrall you? Did you get a tremendous enjoyment, or rush even out of that experience, do you remember how amazing it felt to have that experience? If you remembered that you had done it before, would you remotely have that same wonder?" I think about it "probably not, but it is frustrating for them as well that they don't remember what they were meant to do here".
Cornelius leans in towards me, "that's what you get to help them with". He leans closer and the air stills between us, "you just feel lonely". I shake my head "No, it's not that. (Even if I just wonder if it is that) I know that we have the capability of accessing all the knowledge that we have within us, it just feels like it's elusive at times, and others feel this too." "That is wonderful then" he gently reminds me. I love this Guide but right now I could whack him one. I want to be annoyed.
"It means that as the Universal energies are changing more people are wanting to investigate the knowledge within to find the answers they seek. This is a great time to be on the earth plane, a wonderful time of awakening". I know he is very gently reminding me that this is also why I came, to help in this awakening and that is why I chose to remember. Gawd, I love it when they gently tell me off at the same time reminding me why I came here myself. I sift sand through my fingers lightly.
"So the reason we forget is that we learn differently? That we learn to value the experiences as if they were new, to try different solutions to different situations and understand more about how we love, learn and grow?" The air shimmers above the sea, alive in its own kind of fluidness. He doesn't comment, I have answered yet again the question I pester them with, myself. Again, I am reminded of the amazing ability of this planet, this plane, and the human body to adapt and learn to situations, life, emotions and growth.
We need to stop for a moment and celebrate forgetting. For in the forgetting is the wonder of being a human, the wonder of new experiences, the possibilities and the dreams. In forgetting you can CHOOSE options simply for the reason they are there, and you need them for your growth. To rediscover love, connection and direction. We need to embrace the forgetfulness with the enchantment of an opportunity to have a life here as we wish it, drive it with our passion, embrace it with our love. We forget this to give ourselves chances to grow, there is a brilliance to forgetting simply because it gives us a chance to re-experience everything again in all it's wonder and glory. Embrace that, Embrace life and LIVE.