Today I read an article in the morning paper about a woman, aged 45 was killed instantly in a car crash on a road I often take on a daily basis either to my own work or to pick up my husband from his factory. Now every day you hear about folks that are hurt or even killed in an unfortunate and untimely "accident". Which brings me to the reason I sat down to write these many "ramblings" in my attempt to release something inside; and that is, what would I do if my life ended abruptly today? What would any of us do? As a mother of four really great kids, I think instantly of my children. What would happen to them? Not that my husband wouldn't take care of them, but I mean, emotionally. What would happen?
Would my oldest son ever find that one job that meant the world to him? Would he finish college? Would he ever marry? What about my 16 year old daughter? Would she ever learn to drive? My husband and I have put her driver's license off for lack of maturity on her part and for our own financial state with insurance costs. Would she resent this? Would she even finish high school? Would she go to college? Would she marry? Then we come to the case of my ever formative 14 year old twin boys; what if? When their lives are already so crazy and the new and freshness of being a teenager is at bay, what if their mother was gone? What would they do; how would they, too turn out? Now to think about it, my husband and I have always been like each other's best friend and life-mates, so would he know how I feel? Would he be able to have the strength both emotional and physical to do this? What would I feel? Would I be able to see anyone, my funeral, or things around me?
So many ponderings, but you know I guess my point is that while we sit and worry about which bill we're going to pay with this week's hard earned paycheck and while we wonder what we'll have for dinner tonight. Are these things really important? In the scheme of things is this all really that important? I mean, think about it. For one minute think about all the things that we make priority.i.e. bills, car payments, house payments, tuitions, home improvements, retirement I mean, some people I've ran into (not literally) have either mentioned or wear the weight of the world on their shoulders because they're either running late or someone has "screwed them over" or "life just sucks" attitude. Are we really late or are others just early? Does the fact that the light bill is late this month mean the end of the world? Will they care that you were killed in an accident? Probably not. The phrase my best friend coined a long time ago comes to mind, ".it IS what it IS." Okay, my dear friend, you're right and I don't always admit that (being the stubborn innovator that I am), but you're right. The way to look at things sometimes is just that..it IS what it IS and nothing more. Live it up, this might be the last thing you read.