I am very fortunate to have a state park nearby,as well as a willing friend to walk with.Today was another picture perfect September day..a special day for me,marking 25 years sobriety.
So I called my friend and we took off for the park,parked and found the trail by the stream.Because of the rainy summer the water was high and the stream was bubbling over rocks and felled trees.The only other sounds were birds singing and snatches of conversation of other walkers passing by.
When I am near water I feel its soothing sounds healing.Tall trees were reflected in the stream's glassy surface as well as the azure sky above.My friend and I talked about many things as we kept up a stetady fast walk,getting slightly out of breath but breathing in the fresh air.
All summer I had swum a mile daily in an outdoor swim club and had felt toned and strong.Since Labor Day I had been a slug,only venturing out to yoga twice a week.I noticed the difference almost immediately in the lack of energy,the dark thoughts creeping back in,the longing and the missing of one who touched me so deeply,then cut and run,and I knew it was time to get off my ass and get moving.
So now I sit at my computer,still sweating but feeling fresh and energized,some of the dark feelings exorcised for another day,happy that I got in the water and talk therapy I so sorely needed.
My son and Husband are both football fans and are content to sit inside on a beautiful day and yell at a bunch of testosterone filled men knocking each other about over a ball.
I consider myself the lucky one to have partaken in this gift of conversation,nature and serenity,so necessary when one is mourning a loss.
Now I must shower and go to a cocktail party(always fun when one doesn't drink),and then,hopefully arrive home in time to get in a couple of hours with Stephen King" "Bag of Bones" before I retire to bed.
Causes Heather Koelle Supports
public health care,world peace,environmental stewardship,psychology,society against child abuse,spiriitual and psychological quests,recovery issues,mental...