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Where am I? The Central Valley of California has a real geography, of farm roads and rivers and cities, but the the long, thin twilight zone of Interstate 5 has only its own reference points: about an hour downwind from the doomed, stinking cattle of Harris Ranch, between the two closed state rest areas, past the towering diesel sign, still a long way from Starbucks.

I love driving through the valley for itself, but I may love this weird road more. I love the light and I love the wind. Coming out from under the cool, foggy July of San Francisco, I especially love the wind. Hot and solid, pushing on me and stirring me to push back. It makes me want to write, too. Notes on the book, a blog post typed in a parking lot and uploaded through a truck stop wi-fi.

I know a lot of people who find that the gray calm of San Francisco makes them want to draw inside—inside their offices and their heads—to write. I have a hard time keeping my focus and energy in gray calm. It's in the noisiest and most public places and the most aggressive weather that I find myself wanting to work. Maybe it's because, when I was young and felt myself trapped in a chilly fog of a life, writing was the way I found to push my way out and engage with the world. As private an act as it is, in my gut it excites me most when it pulls me out of myself. When it knocks me around and agitates me like the valley wind.

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I share your experience,

I share your experience, Gerry, and always feel unnerved in 'gray calm' and stillness. It's harder to concentrate and the imagination seems not to have the same free rein as on gloriously windy days. (Any British coastal town has more than its fair share.)

Haven't seriously considered it before, but it could well be something to do with being 'trapped in a chilly fog' during earlier years. For me, writing was the only way out of a depressing, occluded existence which was not merely a mental escape but, in time, brought multiple change in real life.

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Skegness Is So Bracing

Aye, Rosy. The first time I really became aware of the emotional power of wind came when I was 18 and spent a summer knocking around Britain: Whitby, Aberdeen, Lerwick in the Shetlands. Cold wind that knocked me right out of myself and made me feel more alive than I ever had. It's only recently that I've come to appreciate the hot, dry wind of the American west, but it's a similar stirring that in some ways takes me further from that depressing, occluded existence we seemed to share. Or takes me to different places, at least: less contemplative and more aggressive. And the older I get, the more I need aggression to make me write.