I grew up with my share of chaos yet, I always thought that 'the all the knots ' would unravel themselves one day. But i must admit that there are days when I can't tell if I am 'midstream' or, at 'the end of my road' That's when I think about how the stuff I was taught as a youth still influence my thoughts and feelings today.
Forinstance, I remember my first advice about sex from Father Mc Kinsey. I could ask him anything and everything that crossed my mind and he'd answer all my qusetions without judgement. The first time I visited his confessional I was fifthteen and I told him that I had 'layed with' Kadesha Bryant and I needed 'forgiveness'. I had no clue then that hundreds of young men like myself were experimenting with sex, and it wasn't the end of the world .
I went back to confesson two years later due to a re-occuring wet dream ,where for no good explanation my girlfriends face kept morphing into my best friend Tyson. I didn't hesitate to ask Father Mc Kinsey what he thought of my dreams. He responded by suggesting I read a passage from the bible in the book of Eclesiates around the seventh chaper and twenty eighth verse which read: " I have known a thousand men, But none them have been anything like a real woman ."
Then he explained that 'Male-Bonding' comes in all shapes and sizes and that nothing is "Bad" or "Good" of itself but "What so ever a Man thinks; so is He" I left his office more conflicted and confused than i was when I had come.Like a overly curious three year old I've pondered the mysteries of everything under the sun. Yet unlike the three year on I had almost twenty years to get the facts straight. Still the conflict between "GOD" and "SEX" has been the hardest knot to unravel.
According to the book of Genesis we find the first two inhabitants on the planet being punished for not 'following orders to avoid the forbidden fruit.' Now a sharp mind recognizes that what is being symbolized here by the words "forbidden fruit" could mean a great number of things, but what is certain is that a line had been drawn in the sand inwhich they were not to cross, and when they did a trust and contract had been breached and they were now in violation of breaking the laws of the Creator.
So while the primary purpose of Sex was to reproduced all living species,the intensity of the experience and ,the emotional relief we recieve from it has cause the primary purpose for having sex to change. But since according to the commandments our primary purpose is to "...Love one another". This is the first and formost instruction we have been given ; in my humble opnion. And love is just two people who feel the same way about each other.