I don't know what I am about to write. This isn't the first time I've typed directly. But, there is always some thought. Something to hitch a verbal ride on. Now, 8:10 pm my time, I am a little hungry. What is hungry? I don't know where it comes from. Why do we want to fill ourselves every few hours - hot soup, cold dessert, breads that sometimes smell of mould (although I don't know what mould smells like), vegetables that have lost their lustre with the sprinkling of oil and garnishing (too much love can kill), bits of chicken lying remoreslessly in a bed of sauce so thick it coats the teeth and you give a barbequed smile. I don't know if I am spelling things right. I usually do.
I just had a sip of water. A sip does not quench thirst...it wets the lips. I could have just run my tongue along the slips, but it is lazing inside my mouth. It sleeps, as tongues are wont to do, as foetuses in wombs curl up and wait to be born. I don't know if foetuses wait to be born. One day we'd read their minds.
Today, I read a bit. Went over other people's words. Expressed myself. I went here, there, wherever I spotted something that caught my eye. Or, someone did. It has been a while. I used to have a lot to say. I still do, but I have tied myself to things I may not want to be bound by. I chose it. Why? I don't know. It works. The choice.
Now, I've adjusted the light so it hits straight at this space. The reflection of the light is distracting. But I can see my reflection more clearly. I am frowning, a deep furrow on my brow, waiting for release. I straighten my face. How do you straighten your face? I don't know. I think you just unfrown and change the way you look at your own reflection.
I am thinking of two words I typed in a comment. Bloody sunset. I like it when the sun bleeds. How is that possible? I don't know. I can imagine it bleeding and the clouds mopping up the blood, and then the clouds will be red. And then they will disperse, like so many poppies in the sky.
Opium? I don't know.
It's 8.22 pm as I post this. Funny, I know what tags to use.