I read once that the time of transition -- moving from one physical place to another -- is prime time for misplacing things. Last night's homework goes a-missing between one class and another. Belts, cell, phones, boarding passes are left behind in those distracted moments in airport security lines.
Metaphorically, transitions make for losing a piece of ourselves. We shift from one life stage to another: frazzled mother of high schoolers to bereft mom of one in high school and one in college faraway; happily working to panicked and unemployed; anchored and married to widowed and moorless.
If we are fortunate, what is eventually found on transition's other side sustains us: we bask in the newly unfolding relationship with the child left behind and revel in the missing one's new vistas. We make it through security belted, cell-phoned and ready to board. We find new work, new strengths, possibly a new partner to share life's transitions with.
My yoga teacher frequently talks about the seconds-long pause between breaths, that moment between exhaling and inhaling when all is still, lungs fully satiated with oxygen or pleasantly emptied and awaiting the next inhalation. She urges us to notice that moment and appreciate it, to stay present and explore it, experience the fullness of being perfectly balanced if only for a second or two. I experience that gap between breaths as velvety blackness, a momentary slip of time when I am so focussed on the now that nothing else fills consciousness, even though what fills it is indefinable. A teacher once commented that God resides in that place.
On my mat, I recall her words. Teetering between breath and no breath I realize it is a micro-moment of death twinned with rebirth's infinite possibilities. Perhaps in transition we lose nothing but instead embody, if only for a moment, everything.
Funny that I am writing on the eve of Yom Kippur. The sages teach us that this twenty-five hour period is a mini-death. We are to wear white, the color of burial shrouds. We do not eat or drink, are forbidden from engaging in physical pleasures or adorning ourselves. We enter a space of time suspended between life and death, praying, atoning, hoping that our names will be inscribed for another year of life. We (hopefully) let go of old patterns and fill ourselves with the promising breath of new ones. We are everything and nothing. At first glance the word transition brings to mind movement. But perhaps pared to its essence, transition is its complete opposite: a frozen moment of supreme stillness embedded with the promise of infinite movement.
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