Present Day

North Brunswick, NJ

Prologue

". . .side by side by side."

I can't sit here all day. She=d been in the car at least ten minutes, squeezing the door handle, unable to budge. She stared through the windshield, careful to overlook the precise rows of engraved plaques dotting the grass. There were no massive headstones or memorial statues, so if she let her eyes skim the tranquil landscape she could pretend it was a park, and not a cemetery.

It was never supposed to be like this. The three of them, Carmen, Regina and Jewell, were going to be together until they were old ladiesBside by side by side. Maybe deaf, toothless, and half crazy, but still together, laughing, fussing, swapping stories, being there for each other, the way they had been since sophomore year of college, since 5D, the fifth dimension they used to call it. That apartment had been like the fourth friend, the one that kept them all together. They hit some rough patches, especially in the beginning, but for two decades they had been part of each others lives-- through joy and pain, sunshine and some really funky weather. Then suddenly, randomly, that all changed, and only two remained.

She rocked for a moment, building momentum, summoning her strength. Finally she flung open the door, stepped out and marched along the road, clutching a bouquet of creamy white roses edged in a froth of green as alive as the late spring day. For the three of them, white roses had become a symbol of celebration and success. How could these sit on one of their graves?

As she left the road and stepped onto the manicured lawn, the heels of her suede pumps sank into the soft ground and came out muddy. Not so long ago, she would have been annoyed about ruining her shoes, but now she realized that didn't matter. Neither did a lot of the crap she used to get so worked up about. She would gladly wear army boots every day for the rest of her life if that would change what happened. OK, maybe not gladly. A smile curled her lips. They had been friends so long she had an answer for the comment she knew would have come her way. But you know I'd do it for you, if only. . .

Her chest heaved and tears leaked from the corners of her eyes. She looked up at the cloudless sky to drain them back into place and wiped at her face with her shirt cuff. She=d been through a million >if only=s=. None of them could change what already was. OK. Get it together. There had been so many tears in the months since it happened, but she had promised herself she=d hold them back today. The grief had finally subsided enough to allow for conversations that started ARemember the time. . .@ and ended with laughter, because among the three of them there had always been laughter. Nothing would take that away. She suspected there would always be an ache though, prone to flare up at a remembered phrase, the glimpse of a photo, the scent of roses.

In the distance she could see the other alumna of 5D, already kneeling by the newly installed marker, tracing her fingers over the raised engraving--the name, the dates--so official, so formal, so final. The two of them had talked about the old days on the ride to the cemetery, staying focused on the beauty of a wonderful life, not its tragic end.

Since they first met, they had shared enough moments for a lifetime of memories, but all those years ago Carmen, Regina and Jewell could not have been more different from one another. So different that their paths would not have crossed had it not been for the one thing they did have in common---a letter--- that introduced them to a different world, and to each other.

Chapter 1

"I made it."

April 15, 1981

Brooklyn, New York

            I wish they'd all go to hell. Carmen felt the throbbing bass of her brother's stereo vibrate the steel fire door as she shoved her key in the last of four locks.

            "How you gon' throw that card down? You's about a dumb mother--"

            "Shut ya ass and pass the cheeba."

            She knew Z and some of the fools he hung with were in there, playing pinochle or dirty hearts, eating greasy egg rolls and pork fried rice. That's why she went to the library every day after school, stayed there studying until it closed. She was never in a hurry to get home.

            Carmen slipped into the dark hall, eased the door shut. Her stomach did its usual flip flop, bracing for the crap that would greet her. A cloud of menthol and marijuana smoke hung in the air, stung her nose and eyes. She ducked into her room, eased the overstuffed backpack onto her beat up desk and rubbed her shoulders. She hauled a big load of books, especially for some one her size. From the first day her parents brought her home her father called her Li'l Bit. At seventeen she still shopped for jeans and shirts in the children's department, and sometimes had to speak twice as loud to keep from getting stepped on.

            Carmen's stomach growled, reminding her she hadn't eaten since the jelly doughnut and bottle of orange-flavored quarter water she grabbed for lunch.  If I can just get the mail and some Spaghetti-O's it'll be fine.

            Well, not exactly fine. Carmen Webb's life hadn't been fine for as long as she could remember. Two weeks before she started kindergarten her Dad bought her that pine desk and painted it glossy white, so she'd have a place to study, he said. So she could get good grades and go to college. "You get to college Li'l Bit, you got it made," he said. Two weeks later police found Zachariah Webb Sr. near Lincoln Terrace Park, slumped over the steering wheel of his gypsy cab, killed for defending a grand total of $23.00 in fares. Her mother, Geraldine, took to her bed, Z, a teenager by then, declared himself man of the house and Carmen learned to fend for herself.

            And by the time she was ten, her mother was gone too. Carmen was ready for school that May morning. She came in the kitchen and found that Geraldine had pulled every jar, can and box out of the kitchen cabinets. Leopard print nightgown stuffed into awning-striped bell bottoms, Geraldine balanced, one foot on the window sill, the other on the edge of the sink, and scrubbed the shelves to the rhythm of a song she sang to herself.

            "You're gonna fall," Carmen had said.

            "Am not." Geraldine hopped down, light as a cat. "Can I get a hug from my Love Bug," she'd said and Carmen gave her a big one, even though she felt a little old for the "Love Bug" stuff. "I love you, Mommy." Then she was out the door, glad to see Geraldine so full of energy. Sometimes she sat in the dark, staring at the TV like a zombie for days, even weeks.

            Geraldine wasn't around when Carmen got home, but she was glad her mother had gone out. That really meant she was in a good mood, one that might last for a while, except she didn't make it home that night, or the next. By the end of the week the rash that always broke out on Carmen's neck when she was worried itched like fire. She tried not to scratch, and to convince herself it would be alright; Geraldine had wandered off before. Sooner or later she'd show up wearing strange clothes and talking like she'd seen you just yesterday. The first time it happened Z had called the police, but then a social worker came and took Carmen away. Geraldine was back in a few days, but there was a court hearing and a lot of trouble before Carmen could come home. So they stopped calling when Geraldine disappeared on one of her walks, but this time six weeks passed without a sighting.

            Carmen did her best to act normal in school, but she was scared.  Her mother was flighty and confusing, but Carmen missed her chirpy voice, her goodnight kisses, even her bad cooking. Besides, her father was gone; Geraldine was all she had.

            One night Z appeared in her doorway, caught her sobbing into her pillow. "Look, I ain't your mama or your daddy. You need to stop that cryin' shit or I'ma call that social worker and have her carry your ass outta here." Z's tone turned Carmen's tears to dust because she knew he meant it. Once, when she was four and he was twelve, she drew a duck in yellow crayon on his basketball. He shook her until she got dizzy and threw up, and from that moment Carmen understood that her presence was not part of his program. And if he was blood, she figured strangers had to be worse, so she learned to keep out of his way.

            After a year Geraldine still hadn't returned, and little by little Carmen gave up expecting her to unlock the door.

            For the last six years Z had taken the Social Security check Carmen received every month toward her share of the rent. He drove a truck part time for a meat packing plant, and on the side he fenced hot steaks, or worked one of his other hustles--driving carloads of untaxed cigarettes up from North Carolina, stripping copper and aluminum from abandoned buildings--Carmen didn't stick her nose into the details. He managed to keep the lights on most of the time and gave her an allowance for food, toothpaste, personal stuff.

            And since Carmen had no intention of following in her brother's footsteps, she concentrated on her grades. As far as her schools were concerned, Geraldine Webb still lived on Montgomery Street, so Carmen signed her mother's name to report cards and other official documents. She wasn't a problem kid, so nobody questioned it. Carmen kept classmates and teachers at a distance--less to explain that way. She excelled at her studies, always guided by her father's dream of college for her. He had died trying to make it come true.

            It must have come today. Carmen peeled out of her pea coat. If I just ask him for the mail and go about my business what can he say? Most of the time Z got to the box before she did and usually it didn't matter. Nobody sent her birthday greetings or postcards from their vacations, but there was one letter she was waiting for.

            "Oooh-wee! I'ma have to take you sucker's money again!"

            "Nigga act like he can play some cards 'cause he got lucky."

            By the end of a night with Z's posse in the house, Carmen always felt beat down and bruised, but they weren't going anywhere so she adopted her battle-ready stance and marched to the living room. "Hey."

            At first they didn't hear her over the music, then Z saw her. "Whatchu lookin' at?" He was taller than Carmen, but just as slight, wiry. They were both the brown of spicy mustard, but where Carmen's big eyes looked sad behind the hard-edge she put on, Z's pierced you like a street corner challenge.

            "Nothin'." She crossed her arms over her chest, looked past him sitting at the card table in the middle of the room and let her gaze rest on the broken console TV stacked with stereo equipment.  "Where's the mail?" She tried to sound like it didn't matter, tried not to scratch her neck.

            "Shit, what difference it make?" Z's hair was already thin, and what was left he slicked back with the stocking cap he slept in.  "You gon pay the bills?" His buddies laughed.

            "I'm waitin' for somethin', alright?"

            "Damn, ain't you heard all that college shit? You can't go to but one." Arm slung over the chair back, Z slouched in her direction, picked his tooth with a matchbook corner. "Look on top of the refrigerator."

            That wasn't too bad. Carmen flipped on the kitchen light and held her breath as roaches scurried from counters, the stove, and the sink full of dishes. She pulled one of the dingy yellow vinyl chairs from under the table and dragged it to the refrigerator, but before she could step up she heard the swish-swish of a nylon track suit and Randy was behind her.

            "Can't reach that high Li'l Bit?" Grease from Randy's Jheri Curl had turned the collar of his jacket from red to a murky maroon.

            It made her skin crawl when he called her what her Daddy used to. "I'll get it myself." Carmen shoved the chair between them. She didn't feel safe with Randy in the same apartment, much less in the same room. Since that day in the elevator the sight of him made her want to vomit, but before she could stop him he grabbed the stack of mail.

            "Here's the Mays sale paper, you want that?"

            Carmen rolled her eyes.

            He flipped through some other junk mail, then stopped. "Lookie here. Lookie here. A letter addressed to Miss Carmen Webb. This what you want?"  He dangled it in her direction.

            Carmen could see the pale blue crest at the top left corner. She reached for the envelope.

            Randy snatched it away. "Must be important, huh?"

            "No biggie." She leveled a bored look at him.

            "So you don't want it?"

            Carmen seethed inside, but she just shrugged.

            Randy unzipped his jacket pocket, came up with a disposable lighter and flicked it. "So if I burnt it up you wouldn't care?" He held the envelope over the flame, grinning at her.

            Don't beg. "I don't care what you do." Carmen's face hardened into a stony mask.

             Randy eyed her and waved the envelope closer to the flame, but Carmen didn't budge. Then, one corner caught fire. "Ooops."

            Fists balled at her sides, Carmen stared him down, didn't flinch as the creamy paper slowly blackened.

            Finally Randy laughed, let it fall to the floor. "Damn, you one hard-headed bitch."

            As soon as he turned away Carmen stomped on the envelope to put out the fire. She snatched it and headed for her room.

            Door closed, Carmen sat on her bed, shaking. She'd already been accepted to Brooklyn College and Hunter, which her guidance counselor treated like some kind of miracle. But this was the wild card.

            She'd never thought of going to Columbia until her chemistry teacher spent half a period gushing about his twentieth college reunion.  When she asked her counselor about applying he said Columbia didn't accept women. Barnard, their sister school did, "But I wouldn't encourage you to apply. You'll never be admitted." Carmen had scored higher on the SAT's than anybody at her school in ten years, and decided that if her science teacher had gone there, it couldn't be that hard to get in. She ate boxed macaroni and cheese and skipped lunch for two months to save enough for the application fee. She knew she'd need a ton of scholarship money, but if anybody fit the bill for a hardship handout, she did. She figured it was time for her to catch some kind of break.

            As far as Z was concerned, college was a waste. "I been carrying you since I was nineteen. When the hell you gettin' up offa me?" he had asked.

            Carmen didn't care what Z said, she was going, and to medical school after that. And when she became a doctor she'd work in a place that was antiseptically clean, live in a place where there were no roaches and no neighbors like Randy. People would respect her and she'd make enough money so she wouldn't need anybody--not ever again.

            For the moment, Carmen's world narrowed to the contents of that one scorched envelope. She dusted off the burned flakes, gingerly opened the flap.

             I made it!  Carmen rolled on her back, clutched the paper to her chest, thought of her Dad. I'm on my way.

April 16, 1981

Franklin, New Jersey

            "There's a party goin' on right here. A celebration to last throughout the year." Regina sang and danced through the unlocked front door, letting it bang shut behind her. "How come it's so dark in here?" She ended her ode to Kool and the Gang, dropped her loose leaf and shoulder bag on the flowered hall bench, flipped the light and checked the banister.  No note so Mom's here somewhere, like I need to know where she is every freakin' minute of my life. Regina caught the savory aroma of dinner. Her world famous lasagna again. Her mother had stopped teaching long before Regina came along, and was always there after school. Guess she can stop pretending to be mother of the year when I graduate.

            Regina hit the living room light, yanked off her purple and gold school jacket and dumped it on the sofa. She checked her 'do in the mirror over the fireplace. "Fox-y!" Then fluffed the hair framing her face, satisfied she'd found the right setting lotion to keep it from drooping by third period. From kindergarten on Regina Foster was a ring leader. Hot-chocolate brown with sweet cheeks and a cute, round nose, her fast smile and eyes brimming with equal parts fun and mischief drew classmates to her and kept teachers from coming down too hard when she was a bit over the line.

            Regina still wasn't used to how quiet it was at home, now that her brother Keith had finished grad school, vacated the holding cell,  the apartment above the garage where each of her brothers had lived--summers, after college, between jobs or girlfriends. She was the only one left in the nest and she was counting the months until she would fly the coop and be free.

            Her friends had always flocked to her house, but as far as Regina  was concerned, life chez Foster was a bad 50's flashback, but so was the rest of her neighborhood. White, Black, it didn't make any difference. Dads worked and moms mostly stayed home, except when they volunteered at the hospital or, worst of all, at school. Nobody even seemed embarrassed by the white picket fences that surrounded their well-tended colonials, like there could be a clearer stereotype. Her parents, Lonnie and Al were perpetually cheerful, responsible, and solid, like King and Kennedy hadn't been assassinated, Viet Nam never happened, Nixon hadn't been accessory to burglary, or John Lennon hadn't been murdered right on the street by a maniac.  Like they had been just thrilled about their mid-life bundle of joy. It was all so fake as far as Regina was concerned.

            "Regina, would you come in here honey?" Her mother called from the kitchen.

            Now what? Regina burst through the swinging door. "What are you all doing here?" Her parents, Keith, and the next door neighbors who'd been like family her whole life all wore variations of the "I know something you don't know" grin.

            "I heard you were crying yourself to sleep every night because you missed me, so I drove up." Keith, the youngest of Regina's three older brothers, and her favorite, was the only one still living at home while she was growing up.

             "Hardly." She stuck her tongue out at him. "You got tired of  Spam and Velveeta burgers and came home for some real food."

            "OK you two clowns," Lonnie,  a round faced butterball in a pink tennis shirt and chinos, came up behind her daughter, gripped her shoulders. "Let's go into the dining room."

            "Dining room? It's Wednesday." Before Regina got an answer her mother steered her through the door and turned up the chandelier, revealing the table, set like Sunday dinner.

            "Daddy get another promotion?" Regina asked, but when she looked up, all eyes beamed her way.

            "Look at your place Queenie." Keith gave her that nickname when she was ten and found out her name was Latin for queen. For weeks she reminded her family of her royal designation.

            Regina zeroed in on the two envelopes beside her plate and her knees turned to rubber bands. She sent off college applications months ago, then put them out of her mind. She knew she'd get in someplace. In spite of her less than enthusiastic effort, she maintained a 3.8 average, had great SAT scores. She was Class Vice President and yearbook editor-  because she liked the being out front, planning the fun and delegating the grunt work. The thought of four more years in school made her want to chew glass, but she applied to college anyway, because becoming the first Foster in three generations not to attend was not an option.

            From the time she learned 'B' followed 'A', Regina had heard the proud recitations. Her grandma and granddaddy Foster as well as both of her parents and her oldest brother, AJ, had graduated from Howard. Her dad earned his doctorate in chemical engineering from Columbia. AJ got his PHD from Stanford. Her middle brother Michael completed his graduate work at Duke and Keith had just finished his Master's at Rutgers. Regina was left to bring up the rear, although she couldn't see anything left for her to accomplish. Her parents never exactly said she had to follow the family academic legacy, but every time one of her mother's sorority sisters asked about her major, or a church member wanted to know what she was going to do when she finished college, she felt the pressure. "Be famous, or maybe infamous," she would answer, only half joking. Regina felt like her whole family was born knowing why they were put on the planet. She didn't have a clue what she wanted to be, except not like them.

            "Isn't it wonderful?" Lonnie's eyes glistened with barely contained tears. "Howard and Barnard on the same day! I was so excited when the mail came I called your father and your brothers right away." She clapped her hands gleefully. "I called Gregory too, but he wasn't home."

            "I'll be heading straight to the poor house now." Her father, Al, folded his arms across his broad chest. "Straight to the poor house." His eyes looked suspiciously watery too.

            "You're all standing around waiting for me to open these?" Regina looked at her parents incredulously. "And you called my boyfriend? What if I didn't get in?"

            "Of course you got in. You'll get into the other schools too. You'll have your pick, just like your brothers did." Lonnie fussed with the silk flowers on the sideboard. "AJ and Michael sent their congratulations. Oh Regina, we're so proud of you!"

            "Are you talking about the same nutball I grew up with, or have you adopted some other child?" Keith rested his elbows on his chair back.

            Regina rolled her eyes at him, picked up the envelope with the pale blue seal. College felt like her ticket to the same-old, same-old--graduate, have a respectable career, raise a model family, take her place as a credit to society, just like her parents. But if she had to go to school, she wanted to do it in New York, far from her hopelessly passé, perfect suburban world. She longed for a big, important, uncharted life, full of unexpected turns and fascinating people, not luncheons, pearls and a suitable spouse. For her, that dream began in magical Manhattan, back when she was five.

            One summer afternoon, Al took Regina and Keith for a Circle Line ride around Manhattan. From her perch atop her father's shoulders she was mesmerized by the sun glinting off the towering buildings. It looked like Oz, and she ached to be Dorothy. Tucked in the '65 Bonneville on the way home, she leaned across the back seat and whispered to Keith "I'm gonna live there one day, like the boat." He laughed, and eleven year old worldliness dripping from every word he said "A boat doesn't  live anywhere! It's docked." Regina didn't care what he said. She had already made up her mind and with each subsequent trip into the city, her determination grew.

            "Are you waiting for Easter? That's not until Sunday, " Keith interjected.

            "Later for you." Regina ripped the envelope open and her eyes widened to search lights. "I made it." It was barely a whisper. "I made it!" She bounced up and down, waving the letter in her hand. Keith, Lonnie and Al moved in for a group hug. New York City here I come.

Sunday April 18, 1981

Baldwin Hills, CA

            "You haven't booked any more last minute appearances for me, have you?" Jewell unfurled her long legs and stepped from the driver's side of the British green Jaguar. Her Jaguar, although it was the car Vivian drove. Jewell preferred her white TR7, a sixteenth birthday present to herself, but Vivian complained the little convertible didn't have the right cachet for public appearances. She insisted that if they weren't going to hire a limo, at least the Jag made a better impression. Jewell nixed the limousine. After one of these events with all the handshakes, waving, flashbulbs and shouting, her head was abuzz and driving, even on the LA freeways, relaxed her. So since she chose her battles with her mother carefully, she agreed to use Vivian's car.

            For five years Jewell had made weekly visits to America's living rooms as Tonya Gifford, the pigtailed, impossibly cute, wise-cracking kid with the husky voice on "Daddy's Girl," one of a handful of sitcoms with a largely Black cast. The show was canceled when she hit puberty, grew breasts, and shot up ten inches, making her no longer little girl cute. In the years since, work had been sporadic--a few movies of the week, guest spots on sitcoms, a record that hit the charts for a few weeks, even a supporting part in a major movie, although to this day she wished she'd never read that screenplay-- but now, at seventeen, "Daddy's Girl" was still her claim to fame.

            "No. I promise." Vivian scurried past the graceful palms and unlocked the towering door to the gem of a 30's Moderne house-Jewell's house. Vivian had had her heart set on one of the homes built by Paul Williams, the Black architect who designed distinctive houses for early film stars. There wasn't one on the market when they were looking, but Vivian loved the house that they, well she, had chosen. Baldwin Hills had been the place for prominent Blacks since Bill 'Bojangles' Robinson made it his home in the 30's and it was a universe away from the rented Culver City bungalow they could afford when they first moved to California, on Jewell's father's sporadic earnings as a struggling comic. But with Vivian's push Jewell had shown him how stars really shine. "But you just sang the National Anthem at a Dodger's game, darling--a nationally televised Dodger's game--that's terrific exposure." She playfully bumped hips with Jewell. "Don't be unmanageable, darling. We have to keep your name out there."

            Jewell hated when her mother called her that. "I'm not your only client any more, Vivian. Maybe we could give my name a rest." She followed into the house.

            While waiting in line Ralph's with her mother, five year old Jewell had been playing, pretending the pineapple in her cart was the queen of fruit. She caught the eye of a casting agent. Jewell made a quick leap from local to national commercials and by the time she was seven she was tapped for "Daddy's Girl." On their first pre-dawn ride to the studio, her mother suggested Jewell call her Vivian while "they" were at work. "It sounds more professional than Mommy." And since Vivian spent more time managing than mothering, it wasn't long before she was Vivian all the time. That's also when she had Jewell's last name changed from her ex's to her own.

            "Of course you need your rest. That's why I'm here to look after you." Pumps clicking across the terrazzo tiles, Vivian stopped at the entry table and plucked a limp lily from the arrangement. Although Prescott Management now represented a choice few other child actors, Jewell remained Vivian's number one priority and she had done a stellar job of looking after her daughter, at least business-wise.  She had long ago given up her job as an assistant bank manager to make sure that Jewell's would be no child star tragedy of squandered talent and misspent fortune. Early in Jewell's career, Vivian sought out the best financial advisors and Jewell's earnings had been invested wisely, some with great foresight others with great luck, and as a result, Jewell was more than comfortable. "Now if you'll go retire your baseball jersey, we'll still be in time for lunch. There's a new Italian place in. .  ."

            "I'm not in the mood for Italian." Jewell took off her Dodger's cap and conferred it, like a crown, on her mother.

            "All right." Vivian reached up and smoothed stray hairs off Jewell's cheek. No one would have cast them as mother and daughter. Vivian was a tiny golden sprite who navigated the world with the nonstop flutter of a hummingbird. Jewell was like a black swan, long neck and all, gliding gracefully along the surface of the pond with no visible effort, while in reality she paddled furiously below. "Then what do you want, darling?"

            You wouldn't let me have what I really wanted. But right now Jewell was eager to hear from Barnard College where she had applied, over her mother's objections.

            Vivian swore Jewell would detest dorm life in cold, dirty New York. "What if something great comes along? Another series? A lead in a movie? You'll be so far away," she had said. After all the years of positioning and planning, Vivian didn't want to believe Jewell would abandon her career. Their career.

             "They have airplanes now, Vivian. And telephones," was Jewell's reply. In the last year she had begun to exercise her right to say no to her manager, which did not sit well with her mother. It wasn't easy for Jewell either. For as long as she could remember her job had been to follow direction, hit her mark, make people happy, and not cause any trouble, because after all, didn't she know how lucky she was? "There are a million girls who would do anything to be where you are," her mother would tell her. But now Jewell's heart wasn't in it. She wanted out of the set-designed life Vivian had orchestrated, where husbands were cancelled when their ratings weren't high enough, and children could be written out when they didn't fit the storyline. After going to class on the "Daddy's Girl" set, then on to the Hollywood Professional School, Jewell wanted to experience real school-real life. She didn't know what that entailed, except she was sure it meant you didn't feel washed up before most people got their feet wet. In Jewell's mind, New York was the capital of real, whole continent away from Vivian's interference and cold calculations, a place where she could stop acting and just be.

            The wait to hear if she'd been accepted had made Jewell more nervous than she ever was about a callback, but she had only submitted the one application. If  it was supposed to happen, it would. She knew competition for admission to any Seven Sister's school was fierce. They measured brain power, not star power. It was a new arena for her, but she wanted to be accepted on her own merit, without points for being a celebrity. Jewell had a driving curiosity and read voraciously: in her trailer between takes, in the car on her ride home, sometimes half the night. She wanted four years to study what intrigued her, not lines other people had written. She wanted to speak her own mind, make her own decisions, deal with her own mistakes.

            Jewell twisted her blanket of black hair into a knot on top of her head and decided to give Vivian the short answer. "Right now what I want is a swim."  The pool, surrounded by a lush garden, had been her favorite part of the house when they bought it after the first season of "Daddy's Girl". When she was lonely she used to pretend it was an enchanted forest with fairies and elves and that one day her father would fly on his winged stallion to see her. Now she let her hair fall back around her shoulders. "After that, maybe I'd like a big salad, with avocado and sprouts and. . ."

            "Sounds divine." Vivian took Jewell's hand. "But first, I have a little surprise for you."

            The  taupe and cream deco living room, complete with wet bar and white baby grand was very Hollywood. Jewell plopped into a club chair and smiled slyly. "Your surprises are never little."

            Vivian opened a drawer in the burled walnut end table and removed a large gray envelope.

            Jewell rolled her eyes. "Is that it?" She knew it was another script.

            Vivian's face lit up as she did the pitch. "It's called 'After Class'. It's about a group of high school wise guys who always meet in detention. . . "

            "Great. Welcome Back Kotter meets the Dead End Kids." Jewell twisted her hair into a loose braid.

            "Give it a quick read." Vivian held it out. "I think it has potential."

            "First, I'm not interested. Second, nobody's going to cast a six foot sophomore girl."

            "Fine." Vivian tossed the script on the sofa.  "There's more." She pulled two envelopes out of the drawer, took a deep breath. "The benefit of being older is that you get wisdom. You can see further down the road instead of getting distracted by. . . " 

            "Where is this going?" Jewell slouched impatiently in her chair. She didn't know what load of crap Vivian was selling this time, but it was a big one.

            Vivian held her head high. "Congratulations. You've been accepted to UCLA film school."

            Jewell jumped out of her seat. "I didn't apply to UCLA Film School, so why would they accept me?" Her voice dropped to a growl. "And why were you notified?"

            "I applied for you. I sent them the same information you sent to Barnard. . ."

            "Except you changed my essay to why I want to go to UCLA. I don't believe you!"

            "It's the best of all worlds, Jewell," Vivian pleaded "You want to go to school. Fine. You'll be classmates with tomorrow's directors and screen writers." She folded her arms over her chest. "And may I remind you that the last time you made a big decision when I wasn't around..."

            "You had to save the day and clean up my mess, and you'll never let me forget---"

            "It wasn't for me. It was your life. Your future. You were only fifteen, only a child yourself, even though you thought you were grown." Vivian took two steps back to keep from having to look up at her daughter. "You thought it wouldn't matter, that they would still send you scripts. But I'm here to tell you that you wouldn't have been America's little Black darling any more."

            "Who says I want to be? That's what you're worried about, isn't it? It's not good for Prescott Management if my career tanks." Jewell was defiant. She knew she had made a mistake and she didn't need Vivian to remind her. She wasn't going to forget. Ever.

            "That is not true."

            Jewell shifted her focus to the other envelope in Vivian's hand. The one with the pale blue crest in the corner. She snatched it. "How long have you had this?"

            "I wanted you to have options."

            "You wanted me to do it your way." Jewell tore open the flap. Dear Miss Prescott: We are pleased to inform you. . . an angry smile curled her lips. "Now you can congratulate me Vivian. Because whether you like it or not, I made it, and in the fall I'm going to New York."

            "I know what you're doing, but what's done is done, Jewell. Running away won't change anything."