Some people begin life on a dazzling trajectory that never sags into swamps of disappointment or dejection, but most of us swerve and falter a few times once we are shot out of life's cannon. Things go haywire, we get hurt or sick, we lose loved ones or bad guys really seem to be winning. Life hurts sometimes.
I've heard that you attract to you that which you believe most sincerely. I don't know if I'm so convinced this is true. What I believe is that stuff happens and you had better figure out what to do about it so that you can live on. And you have to help other people out. You just do.
I used to be naive and then I became a nurse. Lots of bad things happen to really good people and lots of good things happen to criminals. That's the weird thing about life. Kids get hurt. Old ladies who have done nothing but good all their lives get whacked and then what? Crooks rip people off and nothing seems to happen to them. Can we really attribute mayhem and chaos to anything but fate? I don't believe we can. But I do believe in the goodness of people, or at least the potential for good in people.
The odd thing is I don't not believe in God. I just don't believe God (or the creative force of the universe) is vengeful or plans things in terms of reward or punishment. Fate is fate and if you are in line to slip on a banana peel, you have to figure out how to get up. And I believe that life is better if we lend a hand to others instead of walking past.
It's pretty obvious we're all in this together, and that brings up such mixed images in my mind that I could just scream sometimes. Then, I think of everything that dazzles and inspires me that people have done and dreamed of, and I want to cheer.
I am not yet a cynical, disappointed, formerly hopeful person. Too much about life is mysterious and stunning to be cynical. Just sayin', I'm looking ahead, avoiding banana peels to the extent that I can and relieved there are good people in this world. That's all. Just sayin'.
Causes Christine Bottaro Supports
The Nature Conservancy, California State Parks, The United Way