She struggled to accept the truth of the poor relationship with her immediate family. It was a keen sense of loss to June. She reassured Carmen that she did not need anything before she left town. As the morning progressed the call lights in the nursing station started to beckon and they all got back to work, first folding up the paper poodles and tucking away the berets. All deeply appreciated by June.
The sun rising from the east as she left the hospital in the sharp cold morning peaking brightly through the Sandia Mountains. As she left through the hospital front doors she wondered if it could be her last. She planned to spend the day sleeping on the couch at her ex-boyfriend, Ben’s apartment while he was at work. She pedaled the bicycle she had borrowed from him, with a little more determination as a sense of sadness over came her. Almost catching her shoe laces in Ben’s old bike chain. June would miss her friends from work. She pedaled across the flat University of New Mexico campus, with its brown pueblo style architecture; to his place behind the Frontier Restaurant.
The day before, after turning the in the keys to her own empty perfectly clean one bedroom, she had dropped off her
suitcase the day before and picked up the bike. Ben and June had been dating just over 8 months before their recent
breakup. There were many problems in the relationship. Ben was a sweet hearted good looking man she met through friends at a wedding. She loved him and could easily see him bathing children at night and happily reading them stories. June wanted a child before in her previous marriage but her first husband hadn’t wanted one. Which figured into their reasons for divorcing.
The problem to her, with Ben, was that he smoked pot and still lived like a man in his early twenties although in his late thirties. These two factors had made June hesitate becoming more serious. He had insisted they officially break up before she left. Ben had actually broken up with her. She had wanted to stay together and for Ben to visit at Christmas time in Paris. June although very clear on this point that she wanted to stay together and see how things went Ben insisted on the breakup. He gave the reason that he had tried to date a girl who moved away once and because of the distance it just didn’t work out.
June had to agree that they would have had trouble regardless if she had gone to Paris or not. She could see that she would be the mean one and that Ben would be in the situation of trying to appease her. She didn’t like that thought herself. The apartment was in the university ghetto. A white two story stucco box with iron grills on the windows. Every girl needs a man she loved but didn’t marry for one reason or another to think about when she looks back June mused as her hand reached out to knock.
Ben answered the door in his work cloth that he wore at the health food grocery store. He often wore green pants and a t-shirt and he had a job in the fruits and vegetables section. He was a restless person and often had difficulty sleeping and woke up early with a start each day. He has dark brown skin and curly dark hair, large almond brown eyes, but a round baby face and had a manner of holding his chin down but slanting his eyes upward to look at people which gave him a childish approach.
Soft and charming. It was hard for people to take him seriously. June dragged the bike inside and flopped on the couch in her scrubs exhausted after a night shift at the hospital. This feeling was exacerbated by a sense of excitement of her pending departure. She quickly changed into sweat pants and a tee shirt and pulled a cover herself and set her alarm watch for 2PM. Her appointment with her therapist Max was at 4PM. She fell instantly asleep as Ben left for his job calling over his shoulder that he would drive her to the airport tonight.
June woke up immediately when the alarm rang. Working nights always made her feel slightly sick and off balance. She quickly showered and put on some jeans and a turtle neck sweater and left. As she walked toward the Central bus stop, she mentally reviewed her arrangements to make sure that everything was taken care of before she left. She had sold her Toyota Corolla for 4500 dollars. She had saved about 2500 dollars over the summer by taking extra shifts and being careful. She had her student visa, passport in her purse with an...