A Miracle ...A Wedding and a Baby

And I saw, and behold a white horse: and he that sat on him had a bow: and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer. (Revelations 6:2)

At this point in my life, I had the family I had prayed for and I was proud to be the wife of such an important, wonderful man. My husband seemed to settle down a little more with his business. Earlier in our marriage, I had a strong desire for another child, but my husband did not want children as he had mentioned this early on, explaining that part of his motivation was ,due to his traveling. I respected his wishes. I accepted the situation and left it in the hands of God, "Thy will be done," and honoring my husband. We were happy and grateful for what we had. As many years passed, we were growing together as the family in appreciating the gift of the family we had in front of us with my daughter. My daughter went through the normal teenage years that were turmoil at times, but I remembered my savior and prayed to see her come through. It wasn't easy, but I learned that contrast is life. It was yet another outside situation that allowed the opportunity to go within for His counseling. I didn't interfere where I thought I shouldn't, remembering Who was guiding me. She grew up nicely, and met the most wonderful man in the world. Thank you, God. You did this for us, because we believed in you more than we believed in fear and in the appearance of suffering or lack.

While planning for my daughter's wedding, out of nowhere, my husband sitting at the kitchen table told me how sorry he was that he didn't have children of his own. His brother, who was eleven years younger, was going to be a father. My heart leaped for joy for them and for me hearing this wonderful news from my husband, after ten years, wanting his own child. I said we could have a baby too. He said, "Aren't we too old?" He was soon to turn fifty and I was forty-five years old ...I said, "No," silently thinking about Job's blessings. I may have been forty-five years old but I felt very young at heart and I was in perfect health. I couldn't believe he was talking about this just as I was going over some of my daughter's wedding plans, and the wedding day was close by. I first asked my daughter if she and her future husband discussed having a family, as I didn't want to take anything away from her, especially if she decided to have children right away. She said that she loved her job and didn't want to bring children for maybe five years or so, since her career as a buyer for a well-known clothing manufacturer involved her traveling to other parts of the world, and she wasn't ready to settle down in one place. I wanted to be sure, as not to take away from being the grandparent for her children, my grandchildren.  

I asked my doctor if it were wise and if I were healthy to have a child at forty-five years old. He said he thought it was not only wise, but wonderful. I remembered any negative thought that would come, no longer applied; that they were the conditioning from the past. And during this time every negative thought did come up, "about my age, about having a child born with special needs, Down syndrome, etc." But this time to be rooted out through prayer. The moment we decide with God, everything against it will show up. But when we hold to His promise, He will supply everything that is needed and the best outcome will happen for everyone. I became pregnant within that year naturally and had a healthy baby boy. A heart's desire ten years before ...through patience and trusting God more.

I thought - Wow! - we can give our baby all those things I couldn't give as easily to my daughter. Most important, we can give him a full-time mom because my husband's profession was very successful now, I could be the stay-at-home mom that I longed to be while raising my daughter...This was my greatest dream come true. The mysterious spirit saw this happen, before we did. The silent prayer "thy will be done" answered at the perfect time that would benefit our entire family to receive this gift of a child. And I felt this was a miracle for me to naturally become pregnant and give birth at the age of 46. In hindsight I feel the appreciation, love and compassion and consideration to others first, brought me my heart's desires for the baby I longed for a long time ago. By choosing to feel grateful to the present situations, and not allowing the feeling of loss, doubt, lack, or being left out, of the desire of wanting a baby before my pregnancy, brought to my entire family, the fruit in the perfect season. I trusted and allowed God's timing, consideration to my daughter's family planning, and the timing of my husband's desires, that brought the 'gift' of the expanding family I longed for in my heart a long time ago....

Excerpt from: "Imprinted Wisdom" By Catherine Nagle