There is only one old friend that I really want to find out about. His name is Loren McCune.I went to highschool with him.

Everyone else that I've been wondering about, missing even, has sent me a message in the last few weeks. It had been twenty three years since I'd heard from one person who contacted me.

There's this moment in Dune Book II, where Paul becomes fully aware of the delicate path he must walk to achieve the most positive outcome possible. At that moment he became fully prescient by accepting his physical blindness (symbolizing losing his worldly sight) and embracing his inner sight (of intuitive vision). By accepting his fate, he made it so he could alter it. That's irony for you. He read the script of his life and was able to guide it only by accepting his fate, his blindness and his death.

I grok that fully now. The last six weeks of my life are scripted. From losing my cat, to losing my job, to finding a great new job and getting a Mac for my work. I don't have any control over what happens. Like Paul I can only affect things by not reacting to the situation. "I must not fear. Fear is the mind killer." That is the mantra of Dune.

I feel like I'm watching myself on a roller coaster. I feel like I'm watching myself enjoy the climbs and the falls, the breathtaking views, the horrible speed, and the neck wrenching corners. I'm so very blessed to know what's going on and have no desire to do anything about it.

Thanks Maa Universe for this life experience. I'm having a blast.