Things that I was miserable without
I wouldn't just mention one because when I was a kid; there were several possessions I was miserable without. I had lots of toys and I use to enjoy them very much. If I can think of a possession that I couldn't do without, it would be a new toy from father. Every time my father uses to come home from work, I was often crying when he wasn't bringing them. I guess my dad taught me to trust him and when the perfect timing would come, and then I could get what I asked him. Sometimes, I didn't always get what I wanted then I began to realize that both my mum and my dad always wanted the best for me. It has taught me as an adult that there times when things won't come my way. In my teenage years in South Africa, I dealt with lots of criticism from both my parents because they were forcing me to do math, even if I wasn’t good at it and even if I wasn’t coping with it. We were living in Pretoria and I was at Clapham High School. My parent’s frustrations had influence the level of my self esteem and I could cope with anything that much. I didn’t like myself either. I was blamed for not doing well at school and there were time when I felt like killing myself and sometimes, I tried to kill myself because I felt like I didn’t live up to their expectations and I felt like I was here for no reason.
What I miss about being a kid
I miss going after chickens and I miss playing with my comrades and my siblings it was so great. I miss stories from both my maternal and paternal granddads. What I miss most is the idea of being a kid who just enjoys every moment.
My favorite age
I would say age 11 because at that age, I learned lots of things from my dad and my mom as well. I began to be interested in politics and it was also an age when I realized that you need to be somebody in life. I was going with my dad at work sometimes and I really looked up to him. Those were also moment where I really did well at school.
The things that I always wanted to do
I always wanted to make roads, buildings, streams and I always wanted to se my cars going on those roads. There were times when I liked seeing others making paper aircrafts.
My favorite hero
My hero was X-OR, the sheriff from space. In my childhood when I was watching him fighting bad characters, it made me stronger somehow I felt like I could fight my way up somehow. Beside him, it was my parents. The lion was also one of my heroes because I saw it as an animal of strength and the one who has the power to attack any other animals.
Things that I enjoyed in my earliest childhood
In my earliest childhood, I didn't play any video games at all. I was playing hide and seek with my siblings, cousins and friends at school.
Punishment of choice
Going in my room and spanking. I learned that every choice you make in life has consequences and they have shaped me to who I am today. I wander where I would be, if I didn't face them.
My favorite memory
Watching planes landing at the airport with my parents and siblings. It was a great experience.
What I wish I could have changed in my childhood
I wish I was never subjected to incest, when I was 4 by one of my aunts (one of my biological mother's sisters). I wish I never was emotionally and mentally abused by my biological mother, whom I don't have any relationship with anymore and her family who used to call me names very often. I wish I was never viewed as a child with special needs by her, some of my dad's cousins and her family. Some day I will recover from that and I will never forgive them for their bigotry. To me they're all dead and I just focus on the good memories I had in my childhood.
About Balthazar Rodrigue
Causes Balthazar Rodrigue Nzomono-Balenda Supports
Fight against poverty, justice, freedom of expression, secularism, nationalism, conservatism, Tea Party, fight against Islamism, protectionism.