I felt so alone last night. I shouldn't have felt that way, as I had spent the better part of the previous three hours being unusually social with people I did not know. Almost as quickly as the night had become fun, it became perhaps the loneliest time of my life.
I was at a typical college party, mingling with people I had never seen, people who were different than me. Whether or not I would normally get along with these other people didn't matter. We were all in the same moment, just wanting to have a good time. How I wish that moment could have lasted.
Seemingly out of nowhere, out of a place that couldn't possibly exist, confrontation broke out. Not wanting the fun time to die out, I tried my best to diffuse the situation. The question I kept coming back to was simple enough: why? Why waste our precious time on this Earth together by arguing and fighting about things that are not worth a second's consideration? Why can't we all understand the source of conflict runs deeper than people being mad at each other in a moment of random anger?
The sources of conflict are inevitably blame, unyielding self-interest and taking sides. Why do we all struggle with these agents of confrontation? The answer for every single person is different, but we certainly all feel the same emotions in these situations and in all others. Think about how profoundly your emotions affect you. After you truly understand the scope of your own emotions, you will be able to find compassion in your heart for another person and his or her emotions. We need to find common ground through the emotional, intellectual and spiritual connections we inherently experience together.
I felt significantly diminished after my somewhat failed attempts to bring the conflict to an end, so I sat down helplessly on an unfamiliar couch in an unfamiliar room, alone. Not only was nobody sitting with me, but nobody was even trying to understand the irrelevance I saw and felt in the atmosphere. I sat for over an hour, devastated at the degradation of my surroundings and disappointed in myself for not being able offer anything that anyone found worthwhile.
Avoiding pain and refraining from hurting others is almost overwhelmingly simple that we generally look right past the righteous path directly in front of us. We all need to react, think and act in ways that will encourage the fun, relaxed times and discourage the confrontation that poisons our kind, compassionate human nature. Otherwise, we will all end up alone.