I ….. From Heaven
When I was child... I was simple, truthful, and full of affection or you can say what a usual child is supposed to be. My greatest quote to believe was “to eat and to sleep”. I was demanding but my all desires were easy to be fulfilled by my surrounding. I had a friend circle with whom I used to play around. I had another special friend with whom I used to roam around; it was my grandfather, who was most learned man in the world for me. I learned many fundamental lessons of life from him. One day we were sitting in front of a wide meadow. I was surprisingly seeing birds and butterflies flying independently in open and fearless sky. I curiously asked to him “why can’t those mountains fly?” He answered “Each thing has its significance and importance, everything in this world is created by god and that’s why each thing is unique. What butterfly can do definitely Mountain can’t but there is definitely something unique about mountains what butterfly can’t even think of”. Perhaps I was that much wisdom-full to understand such texts at that age. After knowing such paradox, my curiosity increased. I asked another one to him “where do gods live?” I was definitely asking a tough question to think of but this question was easy to answer to an 8 year boy. After thinking for a moment possibly he was thinking that it’s best moment to let me know few of greatest truths of life. He captured all his experience in understandable format to me. And directed his finger somewhere in the sky, I gazed with aligning my eyesight in that direction.” Can you see the great meeting point of this earth and sky, it is called horizon. “Gods” resides on the way to the end of horizon. They drive this world from there.” I was amazed of this miracle of “gods” “How can I find them?” He added further “You should explore that horizon with clear eyes and you will find your gods on the way. Only thing to remember keep exploring them no matter how whether is, however most of the time in your life you will be feeling it waste going beyond comfort zone. But you should make it point that ships are safest at the port but that is not what ships are made for. So go ahead don’t leave any stone unturned behind….. Search your gods”.
When I was Young… I was handsome, smart, and intelligent, with a heart full of passion for my goals, mind with clear resolutions and a pair of dreamful eyes. I was one of the busiest men on the earth. My greatest quote to believe was “giving my best shots at each front on the road of my dreams and desires”. I was more demanding now than before. I used to put extra efforts to fulfill them. I used to be a brilliant student then an outstanding professional. Blending intelligence and hard work with smart work was returning me better wealth dividends. I was no longer behind in fulfilling any materialistic need and desire. I was more surrounded by electronic gismos, which enabled me to fill the blanks created in my life somehow. Most of the time I used to dream and making plans for achieving them. I had smaller and limited social scale than before. Besides lack of time and space for people let me tell you my selfishness behind keeping limited social scale. Very basic reason of any relationship is dependency. Dependency may be of emotional need, of psychological need or may be of financial dependency or etc. Each one of them demands time and I used to felt like a poor when it comes to time. So I made myself more independent, consequently more time to my desires. In this way I was more practical towards my life or more matured towards realizing my dreams. In my free time I used to think over my grandfather’s words. “Push your comfort zones and search your gods, no matter whether is”. Supposedly, I was still pretending to myself about my inability to find actual meaning of those final remarks by him. How can I search for a thing whose existence is not proven till now? And I wanted to remain another usual person and living life happily. So I decided to forget those words thinking them as my childhood fantasy and started living as a great dreamer and great achiever in my life.
When I was Old … ... I was learned, experienced, thoughtful, and contented by fulfilling all my desires and expectations at each stage of life. Now my greatest quote to believe was “To love and being loved by the people around me”. I used to recall my life most of the time. I used to try to tell people about my experiences, my life, my wealth, my journey. However I was unable to find people with enough time for these things which were very precious for me and earned all over my life. I had no complains to them because I also used to be like them when I was young. Young and dreamful eyes don’t find space for anything trivial to their dreams. Only person who probably listen me carefully was my youngest grandson, who was pure and original as an atom. At that moment I reminded what I was searching something inside the people, possibly it was god. I planned to spend my rest of time to serve him with greatest things I possessed before his conscience covered by obscure curtain of dreams and desires. Possibly at the dawn of my life I became wise enough to identify one of my gods.
From Heaven…This last tag definitely creating confusion where am I now. I am not explaining terrain around let it remain for your surprise. According to Hindu mythology if you ended your life with some desires in your eyes, you keep those even after life. So I am still searching my gods here. I recall words by my grandfather “Gods live on the way” but I missed exploring horizon while I was on earth. I failed to convert generalized definition given by him about gods. This is truth of human being that most of the time they don’t do what they should, and at the same time expect what they should not. What I realize now that there are three masters who determine our god at any instance of time. Those three are time, life and nature. Time determines our state, life determines our stage and nature determines random patterns generated and our conscious choice. And these three altogether determine our gods at that instance. Gods live every where only requirement is to be identified which can only brought to you by clear eyes. Though I am wise enough to identify my gods, but now I have none of these three masters so my pursuit is uncertain. It’s too late now. Possibly I missed my gods on the earth.