I realize now how I became pure ego over the last 15 years. I so identified with my pain, my sorrow, my illnesses, my losses, and my paranoia, that that was all there was to me. Pure Ego. I reacted to everything in my life from this position: that I was unworthy, that I could not trust anyone and that everyone was a potential threat. I became a bundle of fear and confusion and paranoia to the point where I could no longer function. I now realize that all of this is an illusion, and I can make a different choice. I can choose to live from the God Center inside of me, and I can give up my identification with so much pain. Yes I have had more than my share of pain in my life, but by identifying with that pain I became it. And I drew more and more pain into my life. Now I choose to detach myself from my pain. For I am neither my negative experiences nor my positive experiences. I just AM. And I have inside of me a center that is pure love. I choose life now. I choose love now. And I choose to act rather than react. I will be a witness to the events of my life so that I can act according to God’s purpose for my life. No longer will I react from the place of self preservation. I will act from love and recognize the God center in all things of the earth. And I will recognize that all I have is this moment. All I have is this moment to choose love over fear. I will remember that “this too shall pass” and I will not allow any event of my life to destroy me for I am not my ego any longer. When I die, these experiences will be but a memory buy my essence my pure essence will continue to live in eternity. I will still be here regardless of the circumstances of my life. I AM. That is all:  I AM. This moment is all we have. And I will love in this moment. Today I choose life and love.