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Jan.01.2013
Well i cant believe its been 3 years since i have written anything in here! 2013 seems like the perfect time to start writing again! Happy New Year everyone! Here's to hoping 2013 is a better year for me! My resolution as much as i hate them is to spend time writing everyday! I hope to get...
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Dec.29.2010
Be it resolved: this year i will make no resolutions. I will not set up myself for disappointment and failure. Thats not to say i m perfect i could resolve to lose weight or quit smoking but i know i would just be setting myself up for shame and guilt when i slip up. To make a resolution you have...
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Dec.29.2010
Be it resolved i will make no resolutions this year. Not because i am perfect (i am far from that) but because i know that they wont last and i will end up feeling guilty. I could resolve to lose weight or quit smoking or be happier but I know once I slip up that will be the end of that. And it...
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Nov.02.2008
I am still reeling from the craziness of the last two years. I sit and I ponder what brought me here. In my 20s i was a complete underachiever, generation x slacker and unambitious... Then I thought I would never have a house or a new car or a partner or anything that my parents and my siblings had...
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Oct.30.2008
I am beginning to realize just how much unspent anger I have inside of me. For years I was angry with God. Angry because I believed the lies I was told by the Catholic Church, that because I was gay I was destined for a life of loneliness, evil and desperation. And that if I acted on my desire, not...
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Oct.28.2008
Why is it that I must shrink around certain people, become small and uncertain and unworthy. What is this power that they have over me? Just when I think i have finally found my own worth, someone comes along to remind me that they are above me and I am left powerless and a victim once again. Why...
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Oct.22.2008
I can not imagine what it must be like to live with someone who is bi polar, but I know what its like to live inside the mind of someone with bipolar disorder, its like living inside a three ring circus,under the big top, a swirling mass of different images and visions, some of which are real...
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Oct.21.2008
OKLets re-cap my year:Nov 07- breakdownFeb08- uncle dies of colon cancerMar 08- car dies- 800.00 to fixApril 08- Father has a strokeMay 08- Andre's car diesJune 08- Car dies againJuly 08- Andre's car dies againAug 08- my car dies againsept 08- Andre loses his jobOct 08- Get into a car accident...
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Oct.21.2008
I realize now how I became pure ego over the last 15 years. I so identified with my pain, my sorrow, my illnesses, my losses, and my paranoia, that that was all there was to me. Pure Ego. I reacted to everything in my life from this position: that I was unworthy, that I could not trust anyone and...
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Oct.21.2008
no easy road
There is no easy road to take to gain wisdom and self acceptance. One must fight and fight and fight against the fears inside. One must learn to accept the mistakes one has made and to forgive oneself is truly the hardest thing to do. I can only take things one step and one day at...
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Oct.21.2008
We are all so fragile
It never ceases to amaze me how much I have to learn. Recent lessons: expect the unexpected. Your whole life can change in a moment. Whether that’s through your own choices or fate or God. Bad things happen to remind us how fragile we all are. Life is precious and too damn...
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Oct.21.2008
Take solace
Some days I am filled with sorrow for the world. I see so much in my job the sadness just fills me completely. Why have children if you are not willing or capable of giving them the love that they need and deserve? Why be angry with them when you brought them here? Why is it so...
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Oct.21.2008
I have been searching for myself again. Looking for my center, my universe and the place inside myself that is mine alone. I am searching for my soul I think I may have left it inside of you. Searching for me and what I believe in and who I want to be. Searching for a sense of self and a firm...
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About Anthony
I am a 35 year old want to be a writer, social worker, activist, gay man with both physical and mental illness, and learning to accept himself for who he currently is but striving to be the person he was born to be. I write mostly poetry, but have a...
Causes Anthony Sitran Supports
LGBT Rights
Children's Rights
Mental Illness
Bipolar Disorder
Colon Cancer
Lou Gehrig's Disease
Heart and Stroke...