Light My Fire
When I was unemployed I would have days of inertia. I believed that nothing was going to change. I was stuck in my version of Groundhog Day. My mind played a continuous loop of, I can't make anything work.
Usually after hiding in this black hole for a couple of days, I would emerge, blinking at the light, ready to make things happen.
I would be filled with new purpose, renewed energy, and the unshakeable belief that I could control my destiny.
I'm tired of the chaos that surrounds my current gig, and I am ready to move on. I'm very grateful to be working, but I am beginning to realize that a paycheck is not enough to keep me content. I am vacillating between the inertia that previously dragged me down, and the high energy of taking control of my life.
I believe in signs. Today I read a great quote that gave me a boost of creative energy: " the only way out of a hole, is to climb out."
I think that needs to be my mantra for the duration of this particular time of change. A fire has been lit, deep in my gut, and I am now consumed with the conviction that it's time for a change.
Onward!
*quote by Cheryl Strayed
Keywords:
I'm digesting the changes in my life, and sometimes it gives me heartburn.”
About Annette
I grew up with five siblings in a working class neighborhood outside Washington, D.C. I have been writing or telling stories in some form or another for many years. As my old life was dismantled, I found journal writing and later blogging to be the release I...
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Causes Annette Talbert Supports
Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation, RIF (Reading is Fundamental),
Hands On Foundation, Dignity U Wear, Girls, Inc.
Annette’s Favorite Books
To Kill a Mockingbird, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, Jane Eyre, The Story of Seabiscuit, The Diaries of Anne Morrow Lindbergh, Among Schoolchildren, Narnia Series...
blinking at the light...
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Annette, Have you seen the
Annette,
Have you seen the Goethe passage I left in my return comment to yours on my recent piece? It seems appropriate to give it you now.
Katia
This reminds me of something
This reminds me of something my father-in-law told me he would tell his kids when they were young and in a conundrum: "When in doubt, move forward." I love the way it is clear, concise. Nothing wishy-washy about it. And, above all, it has energy - which is something that is often lacking when one is in a conundrum. Good luck moving forward!
Annette, I believe in signs
Annette, I believe in signs too. Half the time I’m not sure if I’m paying enough attention to see the signs. It’s always interesting to read about your experiences, as I can relate—in a different way, of course—but there’s this itch that keeps scratching. Sometimes I feel like an old pickup truck that moves forward a few inches then stalls and I keep moving along like that.
Spark! Follow that fire, Annette…
Thanks everyone, The signs
Thanks everyone,
The signs keep coming. Friday's son was a huge slab leak. I think it means it is finally time to move on.
Thanks for stopping by,
Annette