I've decided that middle age and puberty have a lot in common. Raging hormones, mood swings, insecurities, and fear of the unknown.
Maybe that's why I can relate so well to the middle school students at work. We're all in the same leaky boat.
The difference, of course, is the wisdom that I've accumulated since I suffered through puberty. I recognized the symptoms, and I know that this too, shall pass, but I kind of envy the kids' naivety. Ignorance can truly be bliss.
I am acutely aware of what is going on- this great change in my life has been rolling through me in waves since my early 40's. I don't know how many more supplements I can safely swallow each day, not to mask the symptoms, but to soften this blow.
Puberty wrecks havoc on your emotions as well as your body. I witness the roller coaster of bundled up emotions in my students everyday. There are smiles one day, and frowns the next. A laughing child is replaced with a sullen teen in the blink of an eye.
I try to reign in my mood swings as I clamp down on the lightning quick temper, and the unexplained tears. Journaling helps me purge the anger, and sometimes a good cry cleanses my emotions and calms me down.
I'm trying to stay open to this experience- not to shut it down, but to ride these crazy waves. To fight against it, would be like trying to paddle against the tide; it's futile and exhausting.
Instead I've put on my life jacket and I'm along for the ride of my life. Life has a way of teaching us, guiding us, and changing us, whether we want it or not. It's a wild and crazy ride, and I'm often seasick, but I know these turbulent waters of transition time will become calm and peaceful one day soon.
Causes Annette Talbert Supports
Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation, RIF (Reading is Fundamental),
Hands On Foundation, Dignity U Wear, Girls, Inc.