Lately, I have to admit, I have fallen into an old, familiar habit, which is not exactly, um productive, shall we say? I have always been one of those people that likes things to be right. Perfect would, of course, be my first choice, but since it is rarely an option, I go with right most of the time. This may not, at first, seem like a bad habit, and when used in the balance of common sense, it's not. However, being a woman of extremes, I tend to take it a little too far. Alright, a lot too far.
I have noticed that lately I seem to be unable to work on my writing unless everything else in the house is just right. All my other chores have to be done and the house picked up before I can even begin to fathom a single word. Needless to say, this doesn't happen very often. There is always something that needs to be done, something that catches my eye or nags at the back of my mind. There is always one more thing before I sit to write, one phone call, email, or text, that must be attended to before I begin. This, quite logically means, that not a lot of writing, or marketing, for that matter, gets done. The house work does, but who can tell once the kids get home that I did anything anyway? Not to mention the fact that things, such as laundry, need doing into perpetuity. This is one aspect of this habit I have to let go of if I hope to pursue this dream. I have to be able to let all this go and let the world fade away so that I can, at least for a small snippet of time, let the words flow and the sketches be drawn. I have to allow myself to with the imperfection around me.
This applies to my actual writing as well. I work and then re-read it, tweaking it until I feel that it is as close to perfect as possible. The only problem is, when I read it on another day I may find that I liked it better the first way. That's not to say editing isn't important. It is, more than I could ever say, but obsessing helps no one and nothing, the least of which is the work itself. I am learning, slowly, to let go of that and just write. To not worry about what happens next, to not obsess over every detail until I can't feel the flow anymore. Another bad habit that when used appropriately works for good, when not, well, it creates writers block at the very least.
Writing is one of those things that challenges the writer heart, mind, and soul. Even writing fiction, you are forced to face things about yourself, big and small. It conveys, not only a story, but breath of life, to the reader, a piece of the author that joins him/her with the reader always and hopefully helps both to be better off for the experience.