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margie-marybelle-mckinnon's picture
Feb.08.2014
 At birth, we were given a promise. That promise contained joy, serenity, optimism, the achieving of all our goals and dreams and many other blessings. No one was born bad. No one was born neurotic, fearful, suicidal, depressed or addicted to anything. We were born pure and whole; we were good...
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Apr.13.2013
 One of the subject matters that shows up under my searches the most is “signs of abuse”. This is a complicated subject. I’ll start by illustrating what it was like for me. My father raped me when I was thirteen. Prior to that I was happy, confident, sassy, fun loving, close to my father since...
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Feb.18.2012
Emotional abuse is often undetected, leaving in its wake deep scars.  In the raising of children it’s quite a set up. Your parents are supposed to use their wisdom to guide you, to teach you right from wrong. But in many homes there is little wisdom and the guidance is a whiplash of verbal...
deborah-fruchey's picture
Aug.26.2011
I remember being drunk and suicidal. It is like crouching in the bottom of an old, dry well, a deep one, maybe a mile down. You don’t know how you came to this old abandoned farmstead anyway, you didn’t see the covered pit, and now you are trapped and wounded and thirsty and no one has a rope long...
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Mar.04.2011
This is the second half of a two-part blog on surviving severe depression.Previous highlights were: get rid of all weapons, get a crisis number and use it, and find some passive occupation that can take up hours of your time; something you can do instead of brooding.  The previous installment ended...
deborah-fruchey's picture
Mar.04.2011
     I’ve been hit by a Depression recently, and been hearing from people with Depression, so here is a recap of my survival strategies, made for times when you genuinely do not want to live. This will be a two-part blog.     In severe Clinical Depression, you lose all will to live. It’s one...
christiane-wells's picture
Sep.07.2010
What’s it like to be behind a locked door, admitted for psychiatric treatment? I’ll never forget the feeling I had the first time I was behind the door. It looked so innocent, just a door with a window in an emergency room. If there wasn’t a sign on it that said “Elopement Risk” you’d never know...
margie-marybelle-mckinnon's picture
Aug.26.2010
 A few years ago I was married to my third abuser, living part time in a women's shelter, suicidal and filled with despair. Today I'm the happiest person I know. What happened? What did I do? I resolved the problem. Sound simple? It isn't, but then it wasn't easy to get to where I was. It took me...
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May.21.2010
Anyone abused as a child is aware of how damaging the smallest event can be to your self esteem. Someone tells you they have a 4.0 grade average at college and you think about the classes you got low grades in and change the subject. Or perhaps a friend mentions that you had worn a white dress the...
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Oct.07.2009
A few years ago, as a survivor of incest, I completed a five year program of recovery.  Part of what I did was to work a 12 step program called CoDependents Anonymous.  If anyone has ever worked a 12 step program they will confirm that the hardest part is getting through the first step: "I...