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May.12.2013
Today is Mother’s Day, that time of year when we all celebrate and honor our mothers. We send flowers, take them to brunch, buy them a gift, send them a card and a number of other great ideas. Those of us who are incest survivors and had our father as our perpetrator, at least had a...
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Feb.09.2013
Two of the most troublesome occurrences in the life of a child sexual abuse victim are amnesia and flashbacks. These episodes range from annoying to terrifying. If you have total recall of your abuse, the constant flashbacks not only interrupt your day and...
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Feb.05.2013
The fact that I could get cancer or some other dreadful disease from cigarettes did not completely elude me. Hey, I'm pretty sure I read the warning printed on the side of each pack at least once.
But smokers have an amazing ability to ignore the consequences of their actions. Being addicted...
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Feb.03.2013
February 3
Today’s Math
Today is 12/06/06 this is an equation to me, 12 = 6 + 6, simple; not everything is, but math always works for me. My Higher Power is math based and one of my major decision making tools is to run the equation of the presenting...
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Sep.25.2012
“It’s the chance of a lifetime. An opportunity to make unforgettable memories.” That’s what I told my husband, mercilessly badgering him for ten minutes. “Just think about it, honey. We could be spending a fun-filled week in an African game lodge with wild, exotic animals running around. Why the...
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Feb.25.2012
We plug a movie into our DVD player. Within minutes there’s an unexpected, brutal rape scene. Our throat goes dry, our heart starts beating rapidly. We shut it off. For the remainder of our day we struggle to make our minds go blank, to think of something positive, to forget about the movie...
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Apr.07.2011
One does not live by bread alone. Sumathi realized it not until she had some bread again: She could not eat any longer. However, she lost much more than just her appetite. Neither could she sleep any longer. And, in some quiet moments, she was thinking to herself, she even should not live any...
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Feb.05.2011
Years ago Charles Darwin mulled over a theory of evolution by natural selection – theidea that species evolve or disappear in response to natural selection, so that only the fittest survive. I read these words in a book about Archaeology, one of my many interests. But as normally happens in my...
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Aug.26.2010
A few years ago I was married to my third abuser, living part time in a women's shelter, suicidal and filled with despair. Today I'm the happiest person I know. What happened? What did I do? I resolved the problem. Sound simple? It isn't, but then it wasn't easy to get to where I was. It took me...
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Jun.15.2010
My husband and I recently journeyed back to a small farming community in northeast Nebraska (pop 380) to attend my class reunion. Boone County is one of the loveliest spots in our nation. Its pastoral scenes include rolling hills, in the summer covered with young plants of corn waving in a...
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