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Aug.27.2011
August 27
Burning with Desire
You cannot stop the flames from licking me by telling me I am not on fire. For some reason you do not perceive the flames; you do not know fire. I cradle the desperate hope that you will recognize the ashes when the burn...
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Jul.27.2011
July 27
Un-imbedded
This week I have decided to be braver about where I invest my time, not all of it mind you but a portion of my diligent yet strangely unproductive time. I have to say I am realizing that I hide in pretty much every area of my life and that is no way...
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Jul.13.2011
July 13
Old Nasty
My addiction is like a Percheron, bigger and more powerful than I am, but what I have learned is that if I treat this horse with due respect and a guiding hand from my recovery and my Higher Power I can harness the energy of my illness and use...
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Jun.19.2011
June 19
Tea Totaler
My alcoholism was anonymous even while I was active. My destruction was internal, outside evidence kept to a minimum. It is easy to understand why so many from my past as well as my present are shocked to see me a member in good standing for...
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May.05.2011
May 5
With and Without
With my sponsor- Without my drinking buddies
With my Big Book- Without my contrived dogma
With my home group- Without my dysfunctional family
With my step work- Without my mental masturbation
With my sobriety- Without my...
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Apr.19.2011
April 19
Ground Floor
Step 10 is the place where the doors slide open and I discover I am out of the basement. I have to pay close attention to where my feet are; it is so easy to stumble here in the light of day. Oblivious limitations and universally accepted...
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Apr.10.2011
April 10
Stumbling Under the Tenth Step
When I’ve been outside of my mind it is so hard to tell when I’ve come home again. The landmarks take on such distortion in memory that the facts seem bloated or anorexic as I turn my face from side to side. Old journals remind...
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Mar.31.2011
March 31
Face and Ass
“It is hard to save your face and save your ass at the same time.”
What I haven’t tried in an attempt to live my life as a showman spotlight front and center. What I wouldn’t sacrifice to keep peace and image intact, but in the end it was just that...
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Mar.07.2011
March 7
Migration
Why does an alcoholic leave the drink behind? To go where it’s warm, because drunkenness has become cold comfort, because the climate has changed. The wind resists the flight from the bottle and the initiative to break the flow is rotated among the flock. Though...
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Mar.01.2011
Media coverage of Charlie Sheen’s drug abuse and instability has been overwhelming. Sometimes it’s necessary to look beyond a person’s fame and wealth to understand what they’re going through as a person.
As a former addict, I found Charlie Sheen's recent comments minimizing addiction not terribly...
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